Zindagi Everyday

Proceeding forward from my previous post, there is so much to catchup with, starting with the 'Matki Decoration', 'stage performance', and finally the 'Diya Decoration' in kid's school. The diwali celebration she had missed due to my unavilability.

Sometimes some events, happy or sad occurs with unpredictable baby steps and just do a blast all around. Happy ones scatters the laughters, smiles and promising future, while the sad ones strikes out of the blue , jolting and surprising everyone to dig up the reasons. Sometimes the events are termed as fate, and sometimes destiny, sometimes blessings, and sometimes 'buri nazar' aka evil eye.

Few months back things were going smooth in my little nest. Then started a series of sickness, firstly one down, then another, then another, again the cycle revised creating a chaos in otherwise our quiet lives. Me being the last victim of this sickness cycle got a big blow, which I haven't even imagined.
Unbearable pain, landing up in emergency surgery and now set on a recovery mode. Everything was so fast paced ,leaving both my families surprised and worried. Well, I am also confused about what should I feel, relieved on getting rid of the excruciating pain , or sad on losing the joy of second time motherhood. It is the period where my kid asks to bring a small baby from hospital every now and then, while here I am with nothing in my mind, just taking baby steps to get back into my normal life.

I wonder, how this fiasco made me want to go back to my previous life, about which I was cribbing in earlier posts. Today I have realised, even though i termed that routine as boring but it was at least healthy , I was on my own instead of being dependent. I guess that's the life's way of making one value what they had.I am recovering fine after the second Cesarean operation since unfortunately I suffered with an Ectopic Pregnancy, and wishing everyday to get fully functional ASAP. This Diwali was a disaster, all excitement , preparations, unopened shopping bags took back seat. Hopeful to celebrate the next one with everyone in good shape.
                                              'Health is wealth' indeed.
Apart from this, for the first time in  my married life, I am thankful to be in the joint family setup. During my hospitalisation , not even once I had to worry about my kid, her eating, sleeping, playing times. I was at peace that my kid is in good and safe hands. But yeah she is intelligent to take full liberty with her grandparents during my absence at home. In many ways, this whole chapter of  my absence has made my daughter more mature and understanding, not to forget more naughty and moody too , and my husband more caring and compassionate. Kid does understand that mumma has got hurt and has pain. The most important thing she understood is she can't touch my tummy, which is her most favourite thing and without rolling over it she couldn't sleep. Once I was discharged from hospital and reached home, she was so tempted to roll over my tummy and sleep on it, but understanding the facts, she showed big gesture saying 'Mumma dheere se touch karungi bas, dheere se hath rakhungi, please mumma' (meaning 'Mom, I will touch gently, will keep hand gently, please mom'). I wonder how did she managed to stay without me, anyhow thankfully she did it !!

Now just waiting to open my unpacked shopping bags, rearrange my closet, go on some shopping to burst the stress(that's the best remedy), and finally a visit to my parents. And a promise with self to take care of health, and maintain a healthy life for me and for my families.

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These days a sudden kind of self discontentment is settling in. The feeling of good for nothing is seeping in slowly slowly. Why so, may be I am living in more of a comfort zone not suitable to my age and persona. Being a SAHM (stay at home mother) I am unable to do justice to myself and my kid. Question arises why? The reasons which are peeping in my mind are not so big ones yet not so small to be ignored.
Reason No #1 The monotonous routine through out the week. Yeah, I guess thats a big concern for me. Just getting up, preparing lunchbox for kid, getting her ready ( this part is mostly optional as already mentioned in my previous post that my kid has a choice of person to get ready with), finishing off the daily morning chores(some days include heavy cleaning of house while some days are I keep as relaxed depending on my mood to exert) , chitchat with maid and partial preparation of lunch, following with wait of the school bus. Then comes the feeding and engaging part with the kid. Afternoons just pass by in tidbits. Evening again the same routine, cook dinner, play with kid, make her do homework, and finally dinner time. I am not a foodie so don't even do experiments in the kitchen. (Frankly speaking kitchen is no less than a war zone kind of area, so I limit myself from excessive use.) So the day starts and ends with nothing pretty exciting to do. Some days or weeks pass by when I don't even step out of the house. Nowadays thanks to the dance classes for kid, that atleast I pick and drop her thus kicking my butt out of the house every alternate day. But again just pick and drop, and nothing in between to do or explore.
See even reading this stuff sounds boring, that's how I feel I have become 'boring'. I swear, there are days when I don't even feel like to get ready and out of my pajamas to something presentable. Such a lazy lass I have become. Does it means I am real lazy? I don't know, don't have a clear understanding of it. It is not like I am short of time on hands, but where to utilise this time is a big question mark.
Suggestions may vary from join a dance class, hobby class, explore city, make friends, etc etc.
Now for dance class, I love salsa, but won't be able to join ( reasons not disclosed here)
Hobby class, don't know which hobby I really have now. Baking, photography, blogging.....Baking i tried my hands on and its done ( Avoid Kitchen zone). Photography, just sitting in house is not going to get me new subjects and themes everyday. And the moment I pick my DSLR, my kid wherever she is in the house will sense it and the next moment I would be allowing her to click the pictures. And as per my nature, my introvert persona stops me from getting out in public and click in between those following pairs of eyes. The next suggestion could be joining a institute or classes, frankly speaking travelling ( from ghaziabad to noida/delhi/gurugram) is not my cup of tea. So finally I end up in my boring comfort area.
Some solace I do find in blogging , and meeting few moms whom I have made friends with.
Seriously I so love the apartment culture where you can see n number of people daily and can even get in small conversations with them. Some of them can convert into great friendships too.
I just see no point in living in huge independent houses ( read Kothis in NCR slang) where all people are worried about is maintaining their status, and home instead of meeting people and mingling with them. No one even wants to know the neighbours, if known it will be just a kind of hi/hello/namaste followed with Diwali sweets exchanging short visits and marriage invitations. I am just so sick of this environment. I know I crib a lot, but this cribbing is because I am not getting the solution to this problem. No one is near by with whom you can even share a smile, forget about having a conversation. Don't know what keeps people so occupied and busy in themselves.

Reason No #2
The second reason is my kid. Yeah its true, I am just surprised and disturbed with the activities of my kid. All she wants is to get her wishes fulfilled , if said NO, she runs to her grandparents and will spend her full day with them. She is not at all bothered if I exist . Only she will react is when I will go out. Her only reasons for approaching me are TV, Mobile,tablet, chocolates,kinder joy,. The moment I deny she just walks away from me. With her grandparents she is free to watch all things whole day. Its just frustrating for me to watch her showing me her back. All I do is feel useless, I am so irritated that even I forget to play with her. All I do is scold her and manner her, make her do her homework, try to make her follow a routine. Sometimes I doubt myself if I am really being a good parent to her, but giving up to her demands just doesn't feel right to me. Atleast she knows someone can deny her instead of pampering over all her naughtiness. But in between all this, sometimes it really makes me to think if I am really fit for motherhood. Phew can say my insecurities about spoiling my child are just making my life hell. And I find no way to get out of this misery of my mommyhood.
Some may feel how lucky I am to get time free from kid, but imagine the situation where as a mom, I am waiting for my kid to just come to me and listen to me, talk to me, and all I end up doing is just endless waiting. What use of this free time which is spent only in thinking of the ways to deal with kid. All this irritation and frustration has caused me to be over aggressive, and I am more of like Angry Bird every time kid demands anything to me. I am wondering where all the love, and affection vanishes when I am dealing with her. I just forget that she is the kid and I am the adult. Both of us get struck to our demands and result is I am abandoned. Sigh :(
Sometimes I just feel to stop being a SAHM and search for job. But again my mommy mind takes over me and I just sit here doing nothing other than worrying and getting irked. I don't say that I am not liking to be at home , but feeling the current scenarios I am facing all I can do is question myself for my decisions.Its like neither I am satisfied at home, nor I am open to go out and work.What I am doing as a mother when my kid is not even looking back once to stay with me is just making me restless every moment.Instead now she has gotten into the habit of talking back to all.
Worries are taking their pace to settle in my mommy mind. Sometimes its really hard to justify myself if I am fulfilling my duties towards my kid or am I just going with the flow. I just need some break, and really someone experienced to talk to who can understand my concern.

Reason No #3
In today's competitive world, its kind of rat race going in the corporate world. People don't have time for families. They leave at fix time from home to office but time to get back to home is never fixed. All I wait is to get a phone call of getting late by Mr. Hubby.
So you see, I have ample time in my hands courtesy Mr Hubby and Kid, but all this time is spent in sulking and irking. Can't blame anyone, as I know how the corporate world works.

So its like currently I am in total disaster mode, and need to start working on it. Really need some experienced one to get good advice to come out of this misery. 

Struggling motherhood, the title of this post may seem a little awkward and inapt for the supermoms out there, but at present I am so so in this 'struggling' phase of mommyhood . Reason??
N number of reasons I am dealing everyday with my growing girl. I myself wonder when was the last time I tried to connect with her in  a lovey dovey way as I use to before she started her formal schooling this year. Wait wait this doesn't mean I am blaming the school for my struggles. Not at all, I am quite happy with the school and the medium pace its applying to teach children, as I have seen other school students who are loaded with writing homeworks, rhymes, and assessments....yeah assessments for the nursery( some kids are not even complete 4 years of age) kids, not to forget these schools are the  CBSE and ISCE board schools while my kid has the IB curriculum. The other school kids have started writing the alphabets in the 4 lines notebook( we use to say 4 lines notebook in our school days, dont know what is it called in modern terminology) while my kid is still writing with crayons in the square boxes with the help of provided dotted lines and dots. Only difference is instead of using thick crayons, she has to use some sleek crayons which are just like pencils in gripping and writing as they do have a pointed end. And slowly slowly she is managing to make out the alphabets though they are not perfect but the good part is she makes them herself without allowing anyone to hold her hand and help her. So whatever she is writing its good as its done thoroughly by her. Only we need to sit and make her to write which is the last task in her small world to pursue. See this count to my struggle number 1- making kid to do homework.
 Seriously sometimes it takes whole weekend to convince her for completing her work, and the only time she will start doing it will be sunday evening. Imagine 4 pages of alphabets in a single evening, what a task I need to achieve every weekend. More the time tickles on the clock on sunday evening, more I am anxious, anxious not because I want the homework done, instead the reason being the amount of scolding, shouting, pleading, requesting, appreciating, bribing which all goes into making her do the work. And finally when nothing works soem of the spanking also comes in action which afterwards make me to feel guilty and pledging not to do again. Don't even get confused that my kid is such a poor child facing so much, she is one of the smartest kid having all the answers to your conversations handy. To get her wish done she first tries with me, then with the whole family including the grandparents. Actually grandparents are her trump card to get her wish done against my disapproval. They too are bound to hear her, actually we all struggle to get things done when she uses one or the other family member....she knows she has a choice.

Struggle number 2- making kid listen
Yes this is yet again everyday scenario I struggle with everyday.
Scenario1 -
Kid -Mumma Please glucose de dijiye ( Give me Glucon D, yeah she loves eating it rather than drinking in water).
Mumma- No beta, its unhealthy to eat like this. I will not give.
Kid - Mumma , please thoda sa de do
Mumma- Ok thoda sa only, aur nahi milega
Kid - happily, Ok mumma, thankyou mumma. And finishes it fastly along with watching POGO channel on TV. After finishing new story unfolds. 'Mumma , thoda sa aur, please, please, uske baad nahi mangungi'
Mumma- No, maine bola tha na aur nahi, bas thoda sa
Kid - please mumma thoda sa
Mumma- Ok, bas itna sa aur, ab nahi mangna
Kid- Thankyou mumma, love you mumma. And happily finishes the second installment too.again 'mumma thoda sa aur'
Mumma- No , bola na ..ab nahi, bahut ho gaya. Pet mein dard ho jayega
Kid- Main dadu k pas ja rahi hun.

And after sometime I see her coming with her dadu (grandfather), surprisingly my father-in-law is puzzled why I am not listening her. And when the whole story unfolds everyone is bowled with her strategic approach, utilising all available resources to get her wish done. Phew, that's almost everyday story in almost every activity of hers.

scenario 2-
Mumma- Wash your hands
Kid- 'No, mujhe  nahi karna' , and then unnecessary crying

scenario 3-
Kid- Mumma , gems chahiye
Mumma- No beta, teeth kharab ho jayenge. Dentist uncle ke pass jana padega, wo injections lagayenege
Kid - Main dadu k pass ja rahi hun
And the poor mumma wonders of this evergreen dhamki by kid.

scenario 4-Handling unnecessary crying everytime, be it getting her favourite toy, favourite food, favourite book, colors, be it anything. Just deny her teh thing and there goes a full fledge crying session.
Now a days new line has gotten added to this drama.' Sab chhale jao, main akele rahunga. Mumma Papa jao ghar se, chale jao.' :( :(
Seriously I am disturbed to the core, frustrated, irritated with this new addon. Every time giving in to her demands is making her stubborn and strategic.

Struggle number 3 - Get kid ready for school
This is again everyday struggle of poor mommy 'me' . Everyday she has different choices of family members to get ready for school. One day she want to get ready from her father, right from getting up, to taking bath, to breakfast,to dressing up, to comb her hairs, to pack her school bag and dropping to bus stop. On another day, she wont allow her father to even touch her, and will ask mumma to do all tasks. Then again some other day she will stop both of us and only her dadu or jiya ( grandparents) whomever she choose for the day have the privilege to get her ready for the day.
Phew, she has got really spoilt over the choices she have in the house.

Struggle number 4-  To make kid sleep on time
Thats a never ending struggle I am dealing with right from the beginning of motherhood. My last post 'Noisy Nap time' is already dedicated to this struggle. The new addon is the choice part again. Dont want to sleep she will rush to her grandparents. Me helpless can't do anything, if I shout, scold, or talk, at that point of time nothing works to make her listen me. All she will do is run away from me to avoid the nap time.

Struggle number 5- To control the TV and screen time
Whenever kid is in TV room, she needs the TV to be ON and that too with the POGO channel. No one can watch anything on TV unless she is not at home. Same applies with mobiles and laptops. She has got so use to the videos on you tube that either TV or videos are the only choices left with us.

The list is just endless if everything is included. But its really struggling time for me, and for whole family. At times when she asks me to go away I really question myself if my kid is really grownup to be at her own. But regaining my sanity, I am an adult and not to get messed up with kid. This struggling mummy is trapped in her motherly feelings and wondering how to discipline my child, make her understand the things rightly, to love her and control my emotions( anger,hurt,lost,etc etc).
I want to again treat her like my kid rather than an individual, but this time is her growing years where she is approaching to be an independent personality. I have to help her grow, but firstly I need to maintain my cool and temper, being short tempered and aggressive is not going to help.
PS: At night, the conversation begins again
"Mumma , main good girl banungi kal se, mujhe chod k mat jana aap"
And everything just melts.

Today I am going to write my thoughts on this infamous joint Vs nuclear family arrangement. But before making a start here comes the disclaimer.
" All views are my personal ones with no intention of hurting anyone. The examples ,narratives used here are totally based on experiences with myself, my friends and some acquaintances. While the images used are solely taken from Google Images and the respective writer/ blogger owns their copyright."

Phew such a long long disclaimer I had to put on even before making a start on the topic. Seems its gonna be an interesting write-up for me. Let me dig my thoughts and see where they take me.
Now coming back to the topic " Joint versus Nuclear Family ".
Nuclear family by definition means the family setup consisting of mother, father, and kids while joint family is the extended family including grandparents, parents, uncles, aunts, cousins and kids .
Both are the prevalent forms of family arrangements in our Indian society.
Why does the need for deciding the better comes in our minds, may be they are not perfect in themselves.
Let's have a look one by one on both arrangements, their advantages and disadvantages. 
Firstly let's take the Nuclear Family. Most people I knew from my bachelorhood days are settled in nuclear setup, the reason being working in the cities away from the hometown. Both working / one working, whatever, the couple do have their own struggles, worries, problems, and what not. And when I try to observe them, the first thought which comes to my mind is INDEPENDENCE. Oh I so love that feeling of independence. This struggling yet beautiful phase after marriage where you setup your small nest ,accumulating every thing required for both partners ,doing up the lovenest with tastes of both, which in turn gives a chance to understand each other's choices, preferences, tastes, excitement and many more thus starting to lay a foundation of bonding, belonging to the person and the place .
In this never ending process of creating one's abode, a place which both call their own with gleaming pride and sheer joy, the couple get the freedom to be experimental right from the food, to decor, to grocery shopping, to flexible timings, to weekend outings, to wandering streets aimlessly, to explore the places,new friendships, the city ,the person and what not(hold your imaginations people 😉 ). And above all that pride feeling when couple put their names together on the nameplate of this home, is something which I think cannot be expressed in words. The space and privacy are not something which lacks in this house of dreams .
The above written tasks/struggles I feel is a boon to the newly started relationship of the couple. The hard times, the struggling times, the crazy moments, work load, the new found companionship, the new chaos and craziness, this is the time when the couple enjoys the real life courtship and which lasts mostly for a lifetime. Also the friends made during this tenure are ones whom one can reach at the middle of the night without hesitation.
Slowly when the lives start synchronizing there comes a new life knocking at the door of this beautiful hardworked lovenest . Again a phase of chaos begin but this time it's chaos with joy. The new set of parents learn to love the child even before its born. They feel the bond, plan everything in advance, right from the dresses, room, toys, albums, pictures, cradles, etc and day by day grow with each other. Finally when the little one steps into their lives everything takes a shift filled with new struggles, new experiences, new experiments, new set of worries and joy, new feelings and new determination to do best. This closely knit family starts taking its baby steps in the new world of parenting. Some sacrifices, some hard decisions, and many learnings come in the way to test but the bond helps to sail through every problem and dilemmas .
Not to forget the never ending support of parents, grandparents help the couple to pass away every hardship, their loving words, care, sometimes physical presence and the visiting trips all make it happen to strengthen the foundation of love, trust,care and faith.
The physical distance between the families(parents and grandparents) exist which is inevitable in some cases but atleast the mutual respect, honor, trust, jovialness, stays in place maintaining the sanity of the relationships, and at the sametime giving space and privacy to the couple, the little one and their lifestyle.
I know just thinking about it sounds so rosy and alluring but really to raise a family, make a home on your own is way messy, and struggling, irritating, frustrating many a times. Though I agree that I am just looking on positives of this arrangement, there are many disadvantages too.
1)The major drawback is absence of family support system when it is required in an  unplanned situation like family emergency, sickness, touring, and many other reasons could be there depending on the lifestyle of the couple. 
2) The kids also suffer in long run when parents are busy fulfilling and meeting the demands of the family and young kids, thus having very less or no time to sit with kids and discuss. Though I think this situation is improving day by day, parents realising the importance of quality time with kids thus strengthening the family bond and mutual understanding. These days the working mothers don't even think twice before bidding a goodbye to their careers as the kids are high priority, and even in some cases the dads prefer to be stay at home and moms keep on working. So the sole objective is to take good care of child and not feeling him/her alone or left out. So this disadvantage is getting in control to some extent. 
3) In case the finances do not permit for an off from work ,there are multiple daycare's, playschools, which take good care of kids and make them independent and adaptable. Only one need to figure out the good daycares and have some checks and precautions. 4) Another point to be considered is parents getting aged and feeling lonely, and this can be a bit worked out with occasional visits and communication. As aging parents do long for their children and grandchildren, this setup still provides no concrete way to satiate their desires as migrating to the aging parents, leaving one's bread and butter is not feasible in this growing world of competition for survival. 5) In this nuclear setup ,it's totally parent's responsibility to feed, teach, play, entertain, and do every task of the kids single handedly  without any help .So it's sole parent's take to implement culture, morals, mannerisms, good  behavior and what not along with keeping up-to-date with the competiting surroundings. I swear this can be really annoying at times when kids decide to cross the patience limit of the parents. 
So it's like there are both advantages and disadvantages to this system but still I rate space and privacy higher which are never compromised in nuclear setup.&nbsp

Though I have tried to sumup the nuclear family arrangement, it's quite obvious I may have missed some very important pointers here. If you as a reader do find something amiss ,kindly add it in comments. 

As this post is getting longer and longer, will write about Joint family arrangement in my next post. Till then stay tuned, will be back soon 😎

I assume almost every Indian has travelled in our indian railway trains atleast once. I travel atleast 2 times in a year to visit my native place and that too night travel. In so  many years of my journey, I have come across different varieties of sound, snores, smells and god knows what. Seriously, its like a mini zoo in the night. The people looks so modern, fashionable, geeks, and so many different personalities...but as soon as people start sleeping , everyone is in the same league....some kind of race against each other. The race between who snores louder :D .Somewhere its a mini train in itself whistling and running, while at some other berth(seat) its like a aeroplane or helicopter flying, somewhere else its kind of roaring...Variety of sounds see !!
And along with that comes the different yucky farts, and I woke up with something bothering my nose...grrrr....Now the combinations of SNORES and FARTS really make it difficult to sleep in even 2nd AC compartment of trains, I wish if I had travelled in a sleeper class with all windows open...atleast there would have been a fresh air to breathe in. Anyways, by the time its morning around 5 am, the long queues to washrooms make it impossible to go back to sleep again,  more worse don't even think of peeing in those early hours where your turn may never come ..phew....
At the end the train arrives at my station, and instead of having a nice comfortable seating arrangement I end up all sleepy and tired to my mom's home, thanks to all those noises, and smellssss.

Well this post is totally about my hobby of 'Photography'. I love to click, earlier used the cell phones, and now happy with my camera (read DSLR) . Now the question is if i love to click, then where is the space for dilemma.
Actually my dilemma lies in me. I am too shy to take my gear out at any public place. The following eyes of people in vicinity make me cringe a bit from inside,in other words I feel self conscious whenever I am around people. There is a war in my head 'whether to take the camera with me or leave it at home' . My love for street photography and portraits are suffering. Wondering how people go bindass and click, and I couldn't convince myself to stay calm.
May be one reason for being hesitant is I don't go alone to click. Mostly family trips are used as an opportunity to do some clicking. And every time I end up like a coolie, with baby bag on one shoulder and camera bag on the other.....which is  quite a handful for my medium frame.
Phew....as said 'This too shall pass', looking forward to the day when I will have to carry just me and my camera bag, offering my camera to be handy.

My little girl is always dressed up with woolen dresses, jackets, pajamas, caps, inners, pullovers,and what not to protect her from winters. Today is also the normal winter day, and my kid is adamant to wear her Jeans , standing without her pajamas. So for a change , instead of saying a big flat NO to her, I picked up the jeans and gave it to her. Watching her joy, her enthusiasm to wear it, her efforts to put it on...everything just made me ask a question to myself that why I always have to say NO for even little things which somehow are making her independent in some or other ways. Followed with a guilt of saying NO to her every time, accompanied with her screams, and cries, her Irritation and her tears....such small petty things are not precious than  my kid.
Hoping to say more of yes, along with more of patience and time to my kid is the new approach of myself to the motherhood !!

Well, well, well, after a long gap with a relaxing home tour, finally I am back and remembered to hop on to my blog. As its kind of my ritual to change the template, look and feel of my blog whenever I update it after a long gap, so today I got it changed. Its kind of boring to see the same things all time ....yeah a typical gemini trait to change the routine stuffs :) But blogger is getting me bored with its all so routine templates, as I have only a few favorites one. Need to figure out some real cool and fascinating ones to hold up with my geminism !!
Coming back to the post, its a new year 2016, with already one wicket( read one month) of January down. Happy new year (i know its a belated one) my dear blog and all the lovely people who spend their time to land here.
Well this year is also nothing different than the previous one to me. Still caught up in the same routine, same dilemmas. I thought of making this year a happening one, be it with my career, my hobby, my kid, my little family, my friends, and whatever surrounds me. But,I guess this year is trying to slow down my plans, firstly kid down with viral fever, secondly myself down with the same, thirdly getting some wisdom this year..yeah my wisdom tooth started showing painfully in my mouth, landing me up to my oh not so favorite dentist.....and and and the latest one numbered four ended up with the stupid and reckless migraine.....Argh this is such a sickening start to a year, don't you think so? But but but, finally coping up with each blow, I am here to sum up the startup summary of the year :D :D

Though the start hasn't been great, still I had a great relaxing time with kid at my mom's place. We both are back with a new enthusiasm in our lives. My kids enthu has now started showing up in terms of school, homework, play, stories, dancing and singing, and mine lies in catching up with hers :D
I guess that's what all the mommies out there are bound to do. As I am writing here, my one eye is glued to the clock to match up with the time kid arrives home. Before she comes needs to end  up with lunch, bath, and laptop ......yeah she is a big sucker of any device which plays youtube videos, and the bigger the better is her choice ...phew...I pity my lappy., already my new....just 3 days old phone suffered a screen damage in her hands, thankfully the screen didn't come out and my phone continued functioning well until I couldn't send it for repair....and yeah a big thanks to the damage insurance :P
As kid has started commuting to school in the school van, I am a bit relaxed to catchup with her timings, a good 30 minutes time save :D
The second month, the current batting wicket is on the strike, lets see how many sixes, and boundaries are on the way, along with some chances of half centuries too :P