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Well after almost a year long hiatus I decided to peek into my blogspace .Lot of things have happened in between, some are happy, some are trying, some are memorable, some are haunting, and the list is endless. Here I definitely want to share somethings which are really dear to me. Hope that doesn't make you go all sleepy as its a longggg post :D
1) From past more than one year, I have got associated with 'CUEMATH' where I teach mathematics to kids from grades UKG- 8th. And so far this is the most satisfying, engaging, and honoring work I am doing in my life till now. The corporate career which I had was never satisfactory to me. I always thought that may be I have ended up in wrong profession, I never found myself fitting in it. Well, let me hold my zodiac responsible for doing all this locha(blunder) in my head. Being a Gemini, I really can't find stability in one thing, and this insists me to be on look out for new things from time to time, and I trust this fact completely since I have changed my career choices too :D
Jokes apart, I really learnt a lot from my corporate life. My survivor skills , flexibility, adaptability, emotional stability all are the gifts of that life. But deep inside I never liked my work( just like every other person in IT profession). I wanted to do something which can interest me, and give a feeling of contentment. For sure before the previous year, I never thought that my this search of contentment will be fulfilled in teaching kids. The earnings can never be compared as now I work for contentment, but yeah leaving a full time job do sucks at financial front.
I can surely say, Cuemath is one of the best things happened to me. Initially I had my doubts if I will be able to teach since I never had teaching in my mind. But thanks to Cuemath support, my efforts, family support, and my first few students and their parents who trusted me and handed their kids mathematical journey in my hands, today am really PROUD of myself. In current scenario, people recognise me in my locality , this recognition I have not got while I was working full time, nobody knew me, but now my family is known by my name and work. The appreciation the parents and students have towards me as a Cuemath teacher is something which keeps my spirits high and motivates me. Parents come to my home with their kids with an expectation that I will mentor them and lay a strong foundation of their educational journey. That feel is beyond explanation when people respect you and your work. I stay at home, manage my family life my kid, and do my work in my comfort level. All I can say is I AM LOVING IT ( touchwood touchwood).
Well this moral boost has also inspired me to think of teaching as a full time profession to pursue, but yeah I need to get requalified for this profession which is as of now not exciting me enough.
2) The second thing to share is ofcourse my kiddo. She is a 5 year old child now and the way she is turning out makes me go all awww. But yeah its a test of patience to bring up the kids and I am very bad at being patient. And still she copes with me, understands me and adjusts with me. I know I am not perfect and seriously I don't know all about parenting, but then I am growing up with my girl as a mother. We are growing together and someday I may be the best friend of my daughter. Fingers crossed.....
3) The third event is something which is like a dream for me, I mentioned 'me' , because its something which excites only me and not the head of the family, Mr. Hubby. Nothing is finalised , nothing is done, but still just getting a nod for it seems one step near to my dream. So what is it about which I am going on and on. The dream is to have a house of our own. Though practically, it may not sound relevant as we stay in joint family setup, have our own space in the house, and no financial burdens over us. But for me its something which I had from the day I began to earn. I always wanted to have my own space, a place which I can experiment with, decorate, paint, organise,take care of , and have my shares of success and failure stories. I guess its every woman's dream to have her own place. In my teenage and college days I use to do all the shifting, decors at my home as my mom is not much of a decor person. Her life choices always include having a clean home and all mouths fed well. My choices were always given preferences in the shopping done for home be it sofa covers, furnitures, linens, utensils and many other stuffs. Till date my mom relies on my hometown visits to get her shopping done of sarees and jewellery too. We are like shopping buddies. So you see I had this habit of planning and executing in the matters of home.
But after getting married, everything changed to 360 degrees. In initial days I was not part of this planning and executing.I landed up in a well organised and managed household. Even the stuff for my room was purchased and provided. It was kind of weird feeling for me as nothing can be said or done, all I did was put a smile on my lips and just say 'its nice' when asked about the same. For others may be it could have been a pleasure and relief to have everything in place and already arranged for. But for me it was something not compatible with my independent spirit. I just shopped for my wardrobe and nothing else. Frankly speaking when my kid was born , I didn't even purchase the clothes, toys or any other stuff for her. But slowly I started changing the things, I started doing small shoppings for my room, my child and so on, finally today I am handling my own life. Not to mention this transition was not easy. My opinion was asked in matters but whether it held any weight or was just for testing me I never understood. Thankfully I came out of my nutshell and made my life better. Sometimes your flexibility and adaptability is not in best interest when its a matter of lifetime. One needs to get his/her voice heard and I realised this quite later, but still am not so late.
The motive behind writing this all so long story is to make one understand how much my dream matters for me. Its not like I have got bad in-laws etc, no nothing like that, things are way much better, full support and freedom are given as compared to most of the Indian joint families I have seen and observed in my neighbourhood, its just sometimes you want to be in your own skin without being answerable to anyone, and for this kind of lifestyle, joint families are not the setups to be looked upon, certain norms have to be followed to be compatible with the age difference we and the parents have .
I am well aware and also bit worried too about paying all those heavy monthly premiums which will eat more than half of our earnings , it will not be easy as its just one earning member , my earnings are just like pocket money only. Considering the fact that we may not get to shift in my dream home it makes me doubt , but still I am happy to chase this dream, call me selfish or whatever. At the end I can proudly hand over something of our very own to our kid which she can say of her own, neither of her parents, nor her husbands. And I wish she may create one space of her OWN without depending to others. I want her to be a woman who buys her own diamonds. My parents empowered me to be that woman, and I had a taste of everything they thought for me, and now its my turn to make my girl into that empowered woman.
Seems quite long post I have written. So now putting a full stop here as house calling now :)
Till then take care and if you liked the post, do leave a comment as readers are the essence of writings. Loads of luv !!
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1) From past more than one year, I have got associated with 'CUEMATH' where I teach mathematics to kids from grades UKG- 8th. And so far this is the most satisfying, engaging, and honoring work I am doing in my life till now. The corporate career which I had was never satisfactory to me. I always thought that may be I have ended up in wrong profession, I never found myself fitting in it. Well, let me hold my zodiac responsible for doing all this locha(blunder) in my head. Being a Gemini, I really can't find stability in one thing, and this insists me to be on look out for new things from time to time, and I trust this fact completely since I have changed my career choices too :D
Jokes apart, I really learnt a lot from my corporate life. My survivor skills , flexibility, adaptability, emotional stability all are the gifts of that life. But deep inside I never liked my work( just like every other person in IT profession). I wanted to do something which can interest me, and give a feeling of contentment. For sure before the previous year, I never thought that my this search of contentment will be fulfilled in teaching kids. The earnings can never be compared as now I work for contentment, but yeah leaving a full time job do sucks at financial front.
I can surely say, Cuemath is one of the best things happened to me. Initially I had my doubts if I will be able to teach since I never had teaching in my mind. But thanks to Cuemath support, my efforts, family support, and my first few students and their parents who trusted me and handed their kids mathematical journey in my hands, today am really PROUD of myself. In current scenario, people recognise me in my locality , this recognition I have not got while I was working full time, nobody knew me, but now my family is known by my name and work. The appreciation the parents and students have towards me as a Cuemath teacher is something which keeps my spirits high and motivates me. Parents come to my home with their kids with an expectation that I will mentor them and lay a strong foundation of their educational journey. That feel is beyond explanation when people respect you and your work. I stay at home, manage my family life my kid, and do my work in my comfort level. All I can say is I AM LOVING IT ( touchwood touchwood).
Well this moral boost has also inspired me to think of teaching as a full time profession to pursue, but yeah I need to get requalified for this profession which is as of now not exciting me enough.
2) The second thing to share is ofcourse my kiddo. She is a 5 year old child now and the way she is turning out makes me go all awww. But yeah its a test of patience to bring up the kids and I am very bad at being patient. And still she copes with me, understands me and adjusts with me. I know I am not perfect and seriously I don't know all about parenting, but then I am growing up with my girl as a mother. We are growing together and someday I may be the best friend of my daughter. Fingers crossed.....
3) The third event is something which is like a dream for me, I mentioned 'me' , because its something which excites only me and not the head of the family, Mr. Hubby. Nothing is finalised , nothing is done, but still just getting a nod for it seems one step near to my dream. So what is it about which I am going on and on. The dream is to have a house of our own. Though practically, it may not sound relevant as we stay in joint family setup, have our own space in the house, and no financial burdens over us. But for me its something which I had from the day I began to earn. I always wanted to have my own space, a place which I can experiment with, decorate, paint, organise,take care of , and have my shares of success and failure stories. I guess its every woman's dream to have her own place. In my teenage and college days I use to do all the shifting, decors at my home as my mom is not much of a decor person. Her life choices always include having a clean home and all mouths fed well. My choices were always given preferences in the shopping done for home be it sofa covers, furnitures, linens, utensils and many other stuffs. Till date my mom relies on my hometown visits to get her shopping done of sarees and jewellery too. We are like shopping buddies. So you see I had this habit of planning and executing in the matters of home.
But after getting married, everything changed to 360 degrees. In initial days I was not part of this planning and executing.I landed up in a well organised and managed household. Even the stuff for my room was purchased and provided. It was kind of weird feeling for me as nothing can be said or done, all I did was put a smile on my lips and just say 'its nice' when asked about the same. For others may be it could have been a pleasure and relief to have everything in place and already arranged for. But for me it was something not compatible with my independent spirit. I just shopped for my wardrobe and nothing else. Frankly speaking when my kid was born , I didn't even purchase the clothes, toys or any other stuff for her. But slowly I started changing the things, I started doing small shoppings for my room, my child and so on, finally today I am handling my own life. Not to mention this transition was not easy. My opinion was asked in matters but whether it held any weight or was just for testing me I never understood. Thankfully I came out of my nutshell and made my life better. Sometimes your flexibility and adaptability is not in best interest when its a matter of lifetime. One needs to get his/her voice heard and I realised this quite later, but still am not so late.
The motive behind writing this all so long story is to make one understand how much my dream matters for me. Its not like I have got bad in-laws etc, no nothing like that, things are way much better, full support and freedom are given as compared to most of the Indian joint families I have seen and observed in my neighbourhood, its just sometimes you want to be in your own skin without being answerable to anyone, and for this kind of lifestyle, joint families are not the setups to be looked upon, certain norms have to be followed to be compatible with the age difference we and the parents have .
I am well aware and also bit worried too about paying all those heavy monthly premiums which will eat more than half of our earnings , it will not be easy as its just one earning member , my earnings are just like pocket money only. Considering the fact that we may not get to shift in my dream home it makes me doubt , but still I am happy to chase this dream, call me selfish or whatever. At the end I can proudly hand over something of our very own to our kid which she can say of her own, neither of her parents, nor her husbands. And I wish she may create one space of her OWN without depending to others. I want her to be a woman who buys her own diamonds. My parents empowered me to be that woman, and I had a taste of everything they thought for me, and now its my turn to make my girl into that empowered woman.
Seems quite long post I have written. So now putting a full stop here as house calling now :)
Till then take care and if you liked the post, do leave a comment as readers are the essence of writings. Loads of luv !!
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